REVIEW: Fear Of Falling (Fearless #1)

18212438Fear of Falling by S.L. Jennings
Fearless #1
Publication:July 15th 2013
Publisher: S.L. Jennings
Genre:New Adult,Contemporary Romance,Dark,Abuse
Purchase:Amazon
Synopsis

 I can’t remember the last time I felt completely safe. Security seemed more like a luxury to me, reserved for those who were fortunate enough to have picture perfect childhoods. For those who didn’t bear the ugly scars that keep me bound in constant, debilitating fear. I’ve run from that fear my entire life. But when I met him, for once, I couldn’t run anymore.

He scared the hell out of me in a way that excited every fiber of my being. It wasn’t the tattoos or the piercings. It wasn’t the warmth that seemed to radiate from his frame and blanket me whenever he was near. It was just…him. The scary beautiful man that threatened to alter 23 years of routine and rituals, and make me face my crippling fear.

My name is Kami and I am constantly afraid. And the thing that scares me the most is the very thing I want.

“Don’t worry,” he smiled, pulling me into the hard warmth of his chest. “I’ve got you. I’ll always catch you when you fall.”

And just like that, Blaine had staked his claim on the untouched part of me that no living soul had ever moved. He had captured every fear, every reservation, and crushed them in the palm of his inked hand.

Author Disclaimer: Abuse is real- verbal, emotional, physical and sexual. It takes place all around us; it doesn’t discriminate against race or gender, wealth or poverty. It affects us all- those of us who’ve had to live through it, or watch it happen, even those of us who’ve only heard about it. We are all affected. We are all forever changed.

This is not a story for the faint of heart; this is the story of one woman’s very real struggle through a world against her, the people who hurt her, her real life demons and the people who showed her that every gray sky, no matter how dark, has a sun waiting to break through.

***Inspired by true events***

review

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This book was honest and powerful. It was really moving that leaved you vulnerable at the end of the book wandering what you will do next. In this book I felt a lot of sadness, shock, anger, heartbreak, love, hope and courage. I felt all those emotions and so much more! This story was one real powerful read and I can tell you it’s not for the faint of heart. This story is filled with horrifying memories from the lead ~Kami, the memories ful of betrayal, disappointment and abuse which created a thick layer of fear. She thinks she is unlovable and permanently scarred and she built a very huge and thick protective wall around her heart! She doesn’t let anyone in except her roommates, they have a very strange relationship and they show a lot of affection to each other.

“[…] just remember, the storm doesn’t last forever. It can scare you; it can shake you to your core. But it never lasts. The rain subsides, the thunder dies, and the winds calm to a soft whisper. And that moment after the storm clouds pass, when all is silent and still, you find peace. Quiet, gentle peace.”

It was sad to read about what the three roommate had such a bad upbringing. This kind of story just breaks a persons heart. This book is moving and painfully raw but it is also very hopeful for all those who has been abused. It give a person courage to fight for some kind of happiness and to face a persons fears, to find the courage to love and to have the hope that someone loves you enough to catch you if you fall!  Each of the roommates has their own tragic past but yet they understood each other but the three needs each other to make it day to day  so when she met Blaine Jacobs she was very surprised that her body responds to him where it never actually responded to anyone. Blaine is tattooed and pierced but with deep and kind brown eyes, she seemed to intrigued him, almost like he sees the real Kami behind all that walls she put up! Somehow she feels safe around him but he still scared her!

“You don’t have to be afraid of falling. Just close your eyes, let go, and know that I’ll always be here with arms outstretched, ready to catch you.”

Blaine also had a different upbringing and he battles his own guilt and pain. But somehow, Kami calls to him and he is determined to help find her happiness. Blaine is one amazing guy. He is sweet and supportive and willing to do anything to make Kami feel safe and happy. He’ll do whatever it takes. Blaine helps Kami believe that she is strong. I though the same because with all that in her past she still survived even though she had a lot of fears! He encouraged her to be herself and to open up her heart, to let love in even when she thought she is unloveable. This is a strong book about the slow and beautiful way to fall in love. Though the more they got together, however, the more cracks become to show. She become determined to push him away for his own good. I wander if she would ever let herself be loved by him and to show love in return.

“I’m not looking thru you Kami, I’m looking into you. I’m standing here, wondering how the hell a girl so beautiful could hold so much sadness in her gorgeous green eyes. And I’m asking myself why I want- no- why I NEED to know what’s made her so sad. And what I can do to take away every ounce of that sadness. I need to know what it will take for you to let me in, so I can do just that.”

My hear literally broke for Kami. About all those fears that paralyzed her. I wanted her to be happy with Blaine. The story unfolded with compromised steps, small steps….. Often one step forward and two steps back but for me this book was really brutally honest and realistic! The type of pain she had to shoulder and the abuse doesn’t just get fixed instantly but the cracks fused together over a long period of time. I really felt for Blaine, his heartache and desperation and he didn’t know what to do and how to help the person to love.  He did show her at every moment how much he cared about her. I felt so much emotions reading this book from the big to small ones…. This story is told in alternating POV’s which let us connect to both of the characters.  The epilogue was perfect in my eyes! I was happy and full of joy when I read the epilogue because it was a happy ending with full of love and hope. This book was beautifully written envoking a wide range of emotions. This is a book that I will read all over again! Also I really fell in love with Dom.

“Maybe before a big storm rolls in, you’ll use it to catch fireflies (see, I did remember something, city mouse. But they’re still lightning bugs down here). And if you do, just remember, the storm doesn’t last forever. It can scare you; it can shake you to your core. But it never lasts. The rain subsides, the thunder dies, and the winds calm to a soft whisper. And that moment after the storm clouds pass, when all is silent and still, you find peace. Quiet, gentle peace. That’s what I wish for you. Even if you couldn’t find it with me.”

About the author

6572969Military wife, mother of 3 boys, and author of The Dark Light Series & Fear of Falling

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